Love Struck

Hey there bloggers! Sorry I have been gone for the past couple days. Things have been kind of out there and I haven't been able to really think of much to write about. But a lot has happened in the last couple days. Have you ever had a person that you just couldn’t get off your mind? Some people may consider that to be love. Is it really love? No, but "Love Struck" sounded like a fitting title for this blog entry. Every time I think about him, my heart just starts beating at a rapid pace. And when I see him, I can't stop smiling for hours. Whenever I receive a text from him, I get all happy and a text from him makes my day. Now I know what you are thinking, "Toni, you aren't in love. This is just infatuation". Trust me guys I know. I am in no way in love with this guy. But I know that he makes me happy. And I haven't felt that way in such a long time. Love isn't finding someone you can live with...it is finding someone you can't live without. Have I found that person yet? No, I haven't. But I do know that I have found someone that makes me happy. And it shouldn’t just be about changing your relationship status. It should be about whether you are happy with that person or not. And I am extremely happy with him. Even if things don’t work out and we stay just friends, I would be totally okay with that. Why? Because I know that he cares about me. And at the end of the day he cares about me more than other people I know. Now my family will always be first in my life. But, eventually I am going to have to find the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with. And I think that the #1 quality you should look for in a guy, other than him being a Christian, is that he needs to be someone that makes you happy. And if he can make you happy, then everything else can be worked out. So don't base a relationship on looks or material things. Instead, look for someone who truly wants you to be happy. If that is the case then he will treat you like a queen. And you shouldn't settle for anything less.

So, am I in love? The obvious answer to that question is no, I am NOT in love. But could I potentially get there? Yes, anyone can. You just have to not be afraid of love. Sure you may get hurt and things may not always end well. But you still need to get out there and find the one that you will be able to call your forever partner. And once you find him/her then all the heartbreaks in your lifetime wont even matter anymore. And then you can have your Happily Ever After :) 

Emotions Taking Over

Sometimes, I have no idea what I am feeling. There are no real words to describe my emotions at times. Like at this point in time I am not to sure what to even write about. All I do know is that sometimes I am so confused. But then it shows me that there is only one person that I can always count on to clear up confusion going on in my mind. God is the only one who knows exactly what I am feeling, even when I don't. And for that I am thankful. I just wish sometimes that there was someone on earth that could actually be there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. I hope I am not the only one who feels that way. And if I am then so be it. I just can't help but wonder sometime why things seem to go wrong and then no one is there to help you.

Will things always be like this? :'(

Life As We Know It

"Everyone has bad days..." That is what everyone tells us right? And yes it is true that everyone has bad days. But does that make your bad day less of a bad day? These are the things I question...and they are very good questions. Some people take your bad day and minimize it and make you feel like you are overreacting. I know that drives me crazy. It's bad enough to have a bad day, but then you have someone tell you that you shouldn't be reacting a certain way...that is just insane...
But then i found this quote...and the way it describes life is something I have never thought of. "Life is like an hourglass..." which mean we only have a limited amount of time to live. "Eventually everything hits the bottom..." and those are the bad days that you have where you feel like nothing will ever go right for you. "And all you have to do is wait it out until someone comes along and turns it around". 
So, I guess what I am trying to say is that instead of looking at the bad day I am having or that I had, I should be focusing on the good days I have with friends that truly love me. I can think of a couple right now that I know would be there for me in a heartbeat. And if you instead focus on all you do have instead of what you don't have, then maybe you won't have so many bad days. 
Now I know you are probably like, "Dude, I already know this and I have it down so you aren't telling me anything new". If that is the case then alright then. I just felt like I should post something for the people that, like me, are not having such a great day. 2 Samuel 22:31 “As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD is tried: he is a buckler to all them that trust in him.”

Trust God...he won't let you down! :) 

Rain rain go away...Please? :(

♫ Rain, rain go away. Come again another day...♩ That song would definitely be an accurate description of August 22nd, 2012. So I think that today was meant to be a sad day. Today was full of rain. One of my friends left for college today. He will be missed by many seeing as how he was such a great example to all of us. So, i dropped my sister of at school then drove myself to school. By the time I got to the parking lot I had 2 minutes to get to class and the earth had decided that it was a good time to start raining cats and dogs. Not literally, though that would have been easier to dodge. Anyways, I made it to class on time, even though I was soaking wet. The rest of the day went along pretty smooth. Finished my day early due to English being an online Moodle session. So I came home and got ready to go to Heart For Christ so I could see my friend that was visiting from Hong Kong named Eliza. I missed her so much and I was so glad to be able to see her again. Even if I got soaked AGAIN looking all over the Harvest campus only to find out a couple hours later that she wasn't even there lol But it is okay because I still love her :) Heart For Christ was definitely a much needed thing. It has been such a long time since I have gone to a youth group setting. And I love Harvest and all the teachers there so it felt nice to be around something familiar. And now I am ending my day reflecting on all that has happened today.

I do feel the need to share a little bit of what I did learn tonight. Songs are a great way to speak to someone. I know that a song sometimes does more than a person can. One of the songs we sang tonight was a song I already knew but it was just great to sing it again tonight. The song is "Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone)" by Chris Tomlin. 
Here is a link to the song ----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jbe7OruLk8I It is a very touching song and a great reminder of all that God does for us on a daily basis with his unending grace. And that is a great thought to end this rainy and sad day on :)

Time to study? think again lol

So, I think I can honestly say that so far this blog has been a success. Thanks for all that have checked out my blog :) If there is anything you would like to see on here just leave a comment and I will see what i can do :)

So I have no school today which is pretty cool. I love only having classes on Monday and Wednesdays. But, again I would go back to Harvest in a heartbeat. But because I have no school I have to study on my own. So when I woke up this morning I had no real motivation to study. And as the morning went on, I still had no motivation to open a book. Ate breakfast and then watched TV. Then I had the sudden urge to bake which normally happens especially when psychology is involved. I mean like I love my professor and all but he is nothing compared to Miss Plonk. That class was a fun class. So instead of studying right away i whipped up my own cupcake recipe. It consists of Betty Crocker Yellow Cake mix. Then I decided to add a little extra something and put in Andes peppermint pieces and some mini chocolate chips. Baked that for about 12 minutes and then took it out to let them cool. To frost the cupcakes I made a Butter Cream Frosting. After the cupcakes cooled I frosted the cupcakes and sprinkled some more peppermint pieces on top. I have to say that for something I came up with in 3 minutes, it turned out pretty good. Later I want to try baking a chocolate chip cookie in a cupcake. Now that sounds delicious! :)

Well, now I actually have to get some studying done so I do not fall behind on my school work already lol Again, thanks for all who have read my blog so far. And if you like it then share it with your friends :)

Freshman Year of College? Oh Boy...

So here is my first post on this blog. Now before I start out i just want to say that it will not be anything spectacular. I may not always have profound stuff to write. But I would greatly appreciate your feedback. And if there is something you would like for me to write about than just let me know and I will do so.

So, college...the college life is one that you can never fully be prepared for until you are actually cast into it. I could never fully anticipate all that college would really be until my first day on August 15th. And it was definitely a different experience. It was cool only having two days of classes, but it was also kind of sad because i had no friends in my classes. The feeling of loneliness is something that most freshman feel. And that was definitely the case for me. It was weird seeing how my best friend still goes to Harvest. So now i never see them and that is something that I wish i could change. Hopefully college will be better, but if I could go back to Harvest I wouldn't hesitate.